...is to live life, simply...

"welcome."

Come closer. Look into my eyes. Slowly.
See how I’ve grown and changed through these 8*teen years.
Look at the things I have achieved and the ones I have destroyed.
Things I’ve started; complete and incomplete.
Those that I’ve loved and those that I’ve loath.
Remove the painted disguise and look at this princess in her lonely world.
Tired of picking up the b r o k e n pieces and to smooth out the creases.
Running. Waiting for someone to find her.
Come in now and read of my world.
But remember.
If you don't understand my silence, you won't understand my words.

Enjoy!

Thursday, April 28, 2005

Farewell to you

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you know where to find me, if you want to read me

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for those who don't know, i suppose you can ask
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Goodbye

dreamer ♥ 7:29 PM

Sunday, April 10, 2005

I'm feeling contented with life.
I've had a beautiful day yesterday. Everything felt right. Like how two hands can link together, fingers intertwined - perfect fir.
Initially i thought it was going to be boring. Boy, was i wrong. I met four of my colleagues, all of whom were men, at the mrt station. Since, one of them said she'll meet us much later, we took a bus to the Settlers. A cafe cum board games, just behind Holland Village. The board games are from UK, if i remember correctly. I had so much of fun. Laughters, mostly my own, filled up the place and rang like heavenly music to my music. The first game we played was Zombies. That lasted fo a whole two hours!!And for so long, we were truly entertained. We also had drinks and snacks. I tried the strawberry flavoured coke. Yummy. The boss and their family came and we opened another table. We tarted a new game - Cityladels, i think that's the title. It was confusing at the beginning but once we got the hang of it everything else fell into place. Pretty challenging, and nonetheless, fun. Time passed so quickly, i only wished we could play more games. I took my share of free postcards form the stand at the back. We also had a little tour of the place upstairs. It was much nicer up there, with comfortable sofas and small little chairs and big welcoming pillows. =)) Colourful and attractive. I'm thinking of introducing this place to my friends. We can have a lot of fun there really.
After that we went to Secret Recipe for dinner. I had the chicken set meal that came with a drink, soup and dessert of your choice. Oh my i was so full, i felt uncomfortable at the end. My tummy was just bulging out and there was nothing i could do about it. Unless you expect me to throw up. Haha.We took pictures and some speeches from the interns (those poly students who are on attachments) and also the boss. We spent a long time there. Boss came over once in a while and it was just pure innocent fun hanging out with my colleagues outside of office hours. Shows you that even older men can be as lame as teens. Haha. No, i'm serious about that! After that i took a bus to clementi and went to MacDonald's to get fries and apple pie for my little brother and mom. And i saw two of my JC band friends, Ting ad Jm! Jm just booked out from NS, and is looking pretty good with a little tan and all. Ting really looked different. I chatted with them for a while before i headed home. It was good seeing them after so long.
When i was home i spent my night chatting online. I'm glad to see my little piggie online. Even though we have yet to meet up, at least we are keeping in touch. Oh she's one of my darlings. The best part of being online yesterday was chatting with Mandy, a friend i made here at OD. Can you believe that we've been friends for almost four years, come this Aug 5th, and we only exchanged photographs yesterday! Lol. Its cool because she's my sister's age and just so different you know. Oh how i wish she wasn't so far away. I would really love to attend her wedding which will be in a few years time. Heh. She was showing me photographs of two men in her life. One is her ex while the other is her fiance and she wanted me to guess! Oh dear. Haha. So firstly, i was just predicting how each person was like from their pictures and i was dead right about it, according to her, even though i guessed the names wrongly. Haha. Didn't know i had good people judging skills myself! A picture REALLY tells a lot. Oh it was definitely so much of fun chatting with her. Other than that i had two friends in the dumps yesterday. Life can be a bitch sometimes.Not everybody can be happy when you are. And i also got to chat with Clive and Edna, my seniors from jc, the day before. Just like the old days aye. Looking forward to meeting them really soon.
Life is definitely looking up. After all the dark periods in the past few weeks, i'm glad now. I truly am.
This week i'm planning to meet some friends. my brother's birthday is this Tuesday, but we'll be celebrating it on Sunday. I'm going to met Wend on Saturday for rollerblading. Probably spend the whole day with her or something. Wish me luck., lol. Then i'll be meeting Haze for a movie, and also hopefully Jasmin too. Maybe we could take a trip to the library, since some of my books are with her and get some dinner after that. -all smiles- Seems like a great week ahead. Haha. Oh and i really do not know about keeping my blog. I think i started blogging when i was in 2003, out of influence from my band seniors. Lol. Now i'm typing this here, and will be copying it into my blog. Hmmmmm. I think i might get down to deleting it. Probably transfer the entries into my od. I love this diary too much and i want to start writing in here as much as i used to. I'll be off now to continue reading my book. If you have any great authors to introduce me to, let me know ok? Have fun everyone!

dreamer ♥ 4:21 PM

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

your vision is blurred
when you've forgotten your glasses
colours smudged & lines obscured
you look but you can't really see
like a painting of faraway
pencil shadings of things unclear
no boundaries to confine, within
endless twirling & spinning
twirl and
spin.
everything becomes so out of focus
what you have thought about organised & numbered
have fallen; out of reach
how can i feel what i cannot touch and see
for what's the use of a play
when the stage curtains have not been drawn
standing not being able to feel
your feet against the floor
thats as cold as winter snow
how do i put a name to the
crying of the heart
one that i am now
forbidden to crush.

dreamer ♥ 3:20 PM

leaving the world i know behind
entering the great unknown
to find solace in the deep thoughts of my mind
i know not what i did not do
i may have been unfriendly in the beginning
but when i've found my balance i'm unforgiven.
am i not entitled to question this silence from you
we were tight, real good as friends, i trust you, you trust me
mutual understanding that is void of words
i thought we had that and you proved me wrong.
i guess i may think i might have done something wrong
but infuriated i am
you stay there while i call out with open arms
when love is not appreciated what may i do,
not once did you try ask if i would like to talk about what bothered me.
for this and all, stubborn as a mule i am.
be that way, its fine with me.
i don't like people anymore.
i don't as much want them in my life anymore.
by myself, something i've grown used to.
why all the nonsense you must go through.
speak your mind to be understood.
fight, argue, apoloise, forgive, sacrifice, pain..
why all of this..
its easier just by yourself
you only have to face you..
that is just..so much easier..
so much simpler..
so much more peaceful..
just acquaintances..
all of you must be
just acquaintances & nothing more.

dreamer ♥ 2:40 PM

Thursday, March 10, 2005

Alevels. the fact that i hung around in school a while before going home, supports the fact that i wasn't too disappointed. neither was i happy, but definitely thankful. the saddest thing though, was that my form tutor couldn't make it as her mom passed away the day before. i would have loved for her to be the one giving us our results. some of my grades surprise me actually. my bio is especially disappointing. i am more than grateful to have passed my gp. my chem tutor was happy for me heh. all i have to do now, is cross my fingers and pray to God..since He has taken me this far, i hope He'll bring me all the way and give me the chance to pursue my interest. i want it so badly. when i collected my Os results last year, my lil godsister was with me. and this year, she was there with me again. i'm truly thankful for that really. i needed her there, and hey, it happened. =) we spent some time together at jp before we headed home.

Saturday. so that happened on friday. well on saturday, i went to the library to return my brother's book and got more for myself. surprisingly enough, i saw him at the library while i was going up to the top floor. he was with his gurl. the weird thing was, my first reaction, was to avoid him. that night, while i was thinking about it..i kind of felt that i'd prefer to ignore him rather than have him talk to me and realise that..you know..we're so far apart. i went to jp after that.. bought a new pink shorts and the brain tweaser or teaser for my little brother. i wanted to get the white gold necklace for my sister, but there was no stock. gee. i was real sad about it. now, i still don't know what i should get her. sigh.

Sunday. it was a good day. i met up with my darlin' angels and we spent our day at sentosa. lucky for us, the rain stopped upon our arrival. we celebrated hazel's birthday too! karen had inspired jolene to draw. and for someone who has not drawn in ages, i must say that that girl sure does have talent. what she told us, that ren told her was extremely true. there's no right or wrong in art. you just draw. cool huh. ren did give me a piece of paper to try drawing. but i couldn't. i just didn't know what to draw at all. haha. maybe i wasn't too much in the mood for drawing. i did write a little though. played in the sea and all. they did play touch at times. initially i joined them, throwing the ball. eeks. at one point it hit my jaw which become numb. oh well, i'm fine now. haha. but i didn't join them to play touch. i mean i don't know how to play, and i know they are very eager to teach me. but i guess i'm just not interested. you just have to understand. i'm not the sports kind of person. and there's so many people at the beach ..being the fcking self concious bitch that i am.. i wouldn't want people looking at me .. at what a klutz i am. yeah. so the next time i'm just going to bring my storybook. ugh. irritating, i did write something in my book but i can't get it at the moment. so i guess i'll post more of my mindless ramblings later when i do find it.

Monday to Thursday... well on monday, i did hazie's birthday present and completed it within an hour. i still need to get oher stuff from ikea to complete it. hopefully, i can give her by the end of this week. my brother got back his results too and he did really badly. failed a few subjects. i'm really upset. sigh. i don't know. if i could, i would quit my job and stay home so that i could keep an eye on him and monitor him. my sister is even more upset than i am. we are all really worried. sigh. these days i am emailing kirrthu because bz isn't working anymore which is sad. sighhhhhhh. anyway ren also told me that i only believe that i cannot draw. i need to believe in myself. sigh. tuesday was my darling jennifer's birthday. hehe. i miss her so much lol. =)) she just told me i made her day today. awwwww. *giggles* i also met up with kirrthu on tuesday. we just looked around the pasar malam at je which sucked. we just got ourselves some food and walked a few bus stops..sat fer a while and just talked all the way. its so great. truth is, kirrthu is the only person i'm totally i touch with now. yeah. sigh. if only it could be like that with everybody else. oh yes. something important i have got to say.
i almost had a bad accident that tuesday. i almost got hit down by a motorbike. i almost died. i could barely catch my breath after that. sighhh. i was so confused that night. sigh. oh and yes, my horoscope was oly too true for that day, let me show you. "It is hard to keep your balance when a large rock suddenly falls on one side of your scales, my name. Resolving the matter is not as hard as you think, however, because this rock has actually been dropped there as a gift. Though it might be shocking at first, there is actually an important message in this surprise. The tricky part is figuring out what this message is..." i don't know what He's trying to tell me. but then again, deep down, maybe i do. he messaged me that day. hmmm. something he told me, just doesn't seem to sit right, with me. he was just askin if i was close to her now, and i just mentioned that she's really nice and he went on to say i did some fast judging. and that people shouldn't judge others so fast, that's what causes problems. i tried to explain to him that i mean, she's his gurl and if he love her..then she must be nice, right? i don't really know how to explain it but i know that i won't judge people so fast. even though i hear things about whoever, i always keep an open mind until if i ever get to know the person and then you know. but yeah whatever. haha. weird. its just..he's never talked like that to me in a really long time. just hope he wasn't having any problems or anything. being me and all, i was just thinking into the night. sigh. it just.. felt so nice.. you know talking to him. how much i may ever deny it later. but yeah. and i had to let a few tears fall. will i never be able to forget about my feelings for him.. will i always feel like i miss him after every conversation we may have.. i don't understand what i feel sometimes. and it goes back to why i had to meet him in the first place. why did he have to be so nice in the beginning. letting me fall, and not planning to catch me.i don't like him.. i don't i don't i don't i don't i don't.. i don't................
hahaha. yesterday night i finished reading a beautiful storybook and was thinking about the perfect guy for me. lol. the little things he must have. haha. you're not going to believe this. but during lunch break ytd at work, i was reading instead of having my lunch. i don't think anyone does that right. lol. but who cares. i just love reading so much. it makes me feel at peace. it makes me forget that i'm living a life. it makes me forget about everything else. and there's only the images of the story playing like a movie in my mind. and i will never be able to get this, anywhere else.

I feel as though God's screaming into my face, trying to tell me something. no matter how much i try to cringe and listen, i seem not to be able to hear. forced into this void by unseen hands, the cries of my thoughts are all that's left.

dreamer ♥ 7:25 PM

Thursday, March 03, 2005

wooohoooo!!!!! LOL.my very first clubbin experience - RAWKED !!!!! lol!!!! i seriously had the time of my life man!! i was loving every minute of it! alrights.. let me tell you about my day then aye. heh. right after work i went over ta jassie's house, took my shower and we went to eat our dinner at clementi macds. gosh. i can't remember the last time i was eating there lol. those newtown days. anywayss. so we met sunnie and her friend dhanya at raffles place..hahaha..i'm so glad all of us just clicked ya know! yeahhh. so first we walked to desire.. which was pretty much empty cos we were so early! lol. after getting our chops we had a drink..and then we rushed over to cheekies. hadta take a cab down cos we hadta go before 10pm so that we will not hafta pay cover. well,we did made it so fer cheekies..but unfortunately not fer the wu club.. which is just beside cheekies.. damn.. so hadta pay cover..but its only 10 bucks so i guess it was alright.. hahahaa.. sunnie met her cousin and this girl he was with at wu.. drank again.. vodka sprite.. LOL.. honestly.. i don't know how many shots i had.. hmmm! stuck to vodka sprite the whole night.. sunnie said it aint good to mix yer drinks..lol..hahahaha.. and it was funny.. cos i've never drank before.. and i don't know if i was high or not! LOL. nobody was dancing in the wu club.. so since all of us wanted to dance we went over to cheekies and there were already some people on the dance floor.. haha i was paiseh paiseh at first la duh LOL.. heehee.. but after that just started dancing and got over the nerves..grooving and all.. it was so fun man.. you don't even bother if anybody's looking or not..hahahaa.. oh initially.. i was quite shocked that the clubs were pretty small.. i kinda envisioned 'em ta be a little bigger ya know.. like in the movies.. muahahaa.. but yeahh.. it was alright though..

once we were tired.. hahaha.. we went to the wu bar and drank again.. then the three girls went to dance la.. at wu.. and i didn't wanna cos i didn't like the song and there wasn't like many people on the floor.. so paiseh.. but the second song that played after they went was cool so i joined 'em... oh oh i remember!! it was our talentime dance song when i was in yr one! sooo funnnyy! jassie and i were like trynna remember our steps and all.. lol!! ok after this i think i got really really.. and i mean really HIGH.. i think i was drunk already la.. but i was still steady.. as in i can control.. muahahahaa.. we went back to cheekies and danced the night away!!! waahhhh LOL.. i think i went a little too wild on the floor.. who knows? i can't even see myself dance.. but i was deifnitely having one heck of a great time.. lol.. i remember there was once i went down and i couldnt come up again cos all my muscles in my legs were aching so much!! like helloooo..the last time i danced was like last year's talentime or something.. hahahahaaa.. ouch ouch ouch!! hahahaa.. but whenever a good song that i liked came on you just let go and dance again despite whatever ache HAHAHA.. =x alright.. of cos! there were guys trying to dance with us all.. so funny.. jassie and i were like lookin out fer each other.. trynna dance away.. they just come up behind and try ta groove with you ya know.. at one point of time.. these two guys came up and like..talked to jassie.. they turned out to be maga's friends! hahaa.. the whole time they were trynna dance with us?! LOL.. it was sooo funnnyyy.. i even felt the guy's arm around me.. lol.. but i didn't dance with him though he asked. lol.. but hey'' he's C U T E! but you know guys at the clubs.. they just wanna pick up gurls.. daayymmnn!! lol.. hahaha.. i dont know how? but suddenly jas me were like in between the two guys? hahaha but jassie and i just keep on dancing with each other till the guy went back to dance with his guyfriend..muahaha..they dance pretty well la.. i think i was bumming into the guy a lot wuhahaha.. not on purpose okaes! i dont know whose feet all i stepped on ytd ahahahaha!!! you should see jassie man.. she's so hot on the floor.. sunnie and dhanya happily only go up the pole all.. hahahaha!! i didn't wanna la of course..like excuse me?! its ONLY my first time.. hahahaa.. won't do all that ever though! pole dancing i mean hahahaa.. okieee.. we did all kinda stuff la.. dirty dancing and shit.. initially i didnt really have a very good impression of dirty dancing ? but come to think of it.. if you're out just to have fun and dance it doesn't really matter? sunnie and dhanya together really damn cool.. hahaha.. wooohoo! they said im not bad fer a first timer! lol! *thankiew thankiew* appreciating every compliment !! hahahahaaa.. =))) oh you know the guy remembers all of our names? hahaha but i don't?! hahahaa.. whateverr la huh..hahaha.. so funny.. i remember a coupla times too high cannot stand properly hadta like hold on to my girls.. hahahaaa.. towards the end we just sat outside the clubs.. my feet were aching cos of my heels man.. gawd.. its so fun being high and all!! hahahahaa!! lol~! i rmb aft dancin at wu when we went to sit down sunnie was like asking me whats my fathers name.. it was like screaming in my mind and i wanna tell her but hahaha i just kept on laughing and laughing!! keta drunk la! LOL.. hahahaa.. 'twas soo funny.. and sunnie was like no more drinks fer you man.. hahahaa.. but good la. they really did like..look out fer me and stuff hahaha..kinda twisted my leg a bit also.. had to limb for a while.. i think it was just a muscle pull la. lol..and i must say im so so so sooooo glad to have gone with jassie and the rest.. i don't think i'd have had this much of fun if i had gone with others.. wooopiiiieeee!!!!! hahahahaha!!!! i just loved yesterday so much..
at the end of it all we took a cab down to desire.. but i took the same cab back home! heehee. yeaps yeaps. so i came back home around 3+ and my sister was still awake. so funny. cos i told my family that i went fer a late night movie..and i dont wanna tell my sista cos i dont know how she's gonna take it or react to it ya know..lol.. so i came home i quickly got out of my clubbin clothes la.. hoping i didnt smell too much of smoke and drinks..hahahaa..but she figured i went clubbin la.. and after a litle interogating like who i went with..where..how much i drank..she started laughing laaa!!!!! ahahahaha.. from then we were just talking la.. *phew* heeehee. so glad about that heheehe. sigh.. my sista's ex guy is soooo good lookin.. i hope he'll take her back or sth.. cos i know she still likes him..heehee..anywayyy.. im really proud of myself for saying no to dancin with the guy andd.. especially to stick with my decision of going home instead of going to desire.. cos i used to be a crowd pleaser and just follow.. im glad im being comfortable in my own shoes and following my heart and doing whats right heh heh.. ok im crapping la right.. hahaha i didnt go fer work today!! that tops it all up la.. slack at home.. ok so yaaaaaa..
RESULTS FCKING COMING OUT TMRW AT 230pm!!!!!!!!! the first time when kirrthu confirmed it with me.. i was like.. OMG.. as in really.. even though i had expected it to be either friday or monday.. at that moment when it was confirmed it seemed so close and i was so fckin nervous.. i can just feel all the tears man..so scary..eeks!!! shitos man. oh my god. omg. ahhhhh. very very restless. LOL. =)) hais hahhahahaa. im just in a floatie mood la. not i the mood to be depressed about my results. but the nervousness is just running through my veins.. ahhh i cant describe it.. I AM SOOOOOOO SSCCAARRREEDDD!! i have been having nightmares and shit..! omg. c d e H FOR GP?! wtf la.. nonsensical la.. hahhahahaa.. im not EXACTLY thinking about it right now.. cos im updating.. listenin to music..reading a book.. can't dance now? cos my legs still ache. LOL. i put my msn nick as.. 3 clubs in a night la.. when i first signed in guess who messaged me!! HAHAHAA *omg*.. rmb the one i met long time ago but nvr kept in contact with.. he was like.. u went to 3 clubs??? u win la.. then he was like.. why never ask him out all.. wth lo.. hahhahahahaa.. loser.. -.-!!! hahahahaa.. okok.. fooooo.. supposed ta meet my classmates later.. but im not up to it la.. hahahahaa.. exhausted heeheee.. =))))... oh oh i forgot to add that... we saw beverly!!!! hahahahaa.. she's ok la.. but i think she looks better on teevee.. hahahahaa.. =P

dreamer ♥ 12:56 PM

Saturday, February 26, 2005

She just wants to scream.
Scream, oh so loud,
till the glass breaks
and the crows wake.
Each piece is falling out of its place.
What happened to all the glue
that was supposed to hold her with grace?
One by one, they start to go missing,
blurred beneath heart strings.
She’s having a hard time
trying to even find them.
But hurry, she must
before they
dissipate, like an old memory
you can’t seem to recall.
Like an old fashioned sepia photograph,
clouded with ash and tears
She wept the nights before.
Once the corners have given way,
the rest of the puzzle cannot hold.
They break and spill
colliding head-on,
with this sombre reality.
Just like in the beginning.
Everything’s messed up now.
Strings & stitch won’t be able
to lace her back together.
There’s no more glue left
to stick them back together.
But the damage has been done,
despite what you try to do anyway.
Tangled in this suicidal work of art,
Will she just remain like this forever?

dreamer ♥ 1:42 PM

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
With your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile if you'll just...

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just...

Smile, though your heart is aching
Smile, even though it's breaking
When there are clouds in the sky
You'll get by...

If you smile
Through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just Smile...

That's the time you must keep on trying
Smile, what's the use of crying
You'll find that life is still worthwhile
If you'll just Smile
-Michael Jackson

dreamer ♥ 2:36 AM

i've had a very bad night.
if you know me, you`ll know where to go to read
sigh.
i guess..
God saved me tonight.

dreamer ♥ 1:27 AM

Friday, February 25, 2005

hellooo! heehee. i'm at work now. so i'm updating (that's how bored i am) in between calls. there's no more mails fer me to reply and nothing much on friendster's bulletin board that interests me. so here i am. lol.
well i forgot to add that, the last time i updated, that saturday, i went to my boss house fer dinner. it wasn't so bad. thankfully i had my sister and brother with me. and that day, i've never ever, waited soooo long fer a damn taxi! as in seriously. i think it was more than half an hour or something. bad luck was upon us all aye!

this week wasn't very exciting. however i went shopping after work on monday and tuesday. i've bought destiny's child latest cd, destiny fulfilled. yeah and also a new pair of flats. so now i wouldn't have to use my sister's flats anymore. heh. oh! i finally got myself a new working pants from this fashion and i like it alot! they don't make my thighs look huge. *chuckles* other than those two days i've been going home straight on wednesday and thursday. i think mario from american idol is sooo cuuutttteee! hehehee. well at the start of the week i did receive emails from david and jenn. that made me really happy. he just makes me smile so much. lol! and oops, i just have a tendency to type reaalllyyy looonnnggg emails! i just can't help it. i used friendster a lot too. and i've found a couple of my primary sch and sec sch friends. i'm waiting for this guy to reply, cos there's something important that i needta say to him. hmmm. let's just hope he replies huh.

and of course, the thought of A levels. *screams her heart out* i can't take it anymore! about an hour i was just thinking about it and i can just feel the tears creeping up my eyes. oh my. its getting me sooo depressed. i felt bad yesterday cos a friend of mine was talking to me over the phone. she was mad because of her workplace. she has resigned now though. but yeah, i was half listening and half of me was just else where. eeks. honestly, i'm just preparing myself for the worse. like..failing gp. getting an E for some subject. yeahhh the WORST. now we all know that the O level results are coming out on Monday. initially i expected A level results to come out on Friday, since the UK fair will be on Saturday. but now..seems like it might be the following Monday after the release of O level results. hmmm. that's bad. to tell you the truth. i'd rather get it sooner. because if i want to retake, i want to start mugging earlier. haha. i'm already getting mad huh? but yeah. i'm just being realistic here. preparing myself mentally. and this time round i'll make sure i will NOT get sick and will NOT suffer a burn-out. oh man. mind boggling.

my colleagues are pretty sweet when they want to be i guess. nat came to tell me that jenn, during lunch, told the rest that they should talk to me more so that i wouldn't feel so lonely. aww! how thoughtful of her aye. don't worry the thought of 'them talkin behind my back' isn't invading me at all. *wink* and nat came really close just now and asked if i was worried about my results!! hahaahahaa. gosh. i didn't know i was that obvious! lol. oh well, whatever. heehee.

ahhh. i want to spend my time at the beach. ahhh. i can't possibly go to the beach alone right. sigghhhhhh. it'll be soooo beautiful to look up at the stars in the night. haha. anywayyy hey they're showing aladdin on saturday!! hehee! love it just love it!! *grins* oh well, i've still got about an hour and a half more to go here.. i might be dropping by jassie's house to watch the dvds. i think the title is a series of blahblah events? HAHAHA. unforgettable is it? i don't know. but i do know its not out yet. i think ren's got million dollar baby dvd too. needta borrow it from her. heh heh. alright i'll stop here. hope everyone's doing fine. please take care yeah! ;)

dreamer ♥ 3:27 PM