...is to live life, simply...

"welcome."

Come closer. Look into my eyes. Slowly.
See how I’ve grown and changed through these 8*teen years.
Look at the things I have achieved and the ones I have destroyed.
Things I’ve started; complete and incomplete.
Those that I’ve loved and those that I’ve loath.
Remove the painted disguise and look at this princess in her lonely world.
Tired of picking up the b r o k e n pieces and to smooth out the creases.
Running. Waiting for someone to find her.
Come in now and read of my world.
But remember.
If you don't understand my silence, you won't understand my words.

Enjoy!

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

heyyy. i love the weather nowadays. it's been raining almost everyday. so glad it rain for a pretty long time today. heavy rain during early early hours of the morning yar? cool. the weather really makes my day? just makes me so happy and all. yeaps. mmm. need to really buck up for my tamil. need to learn all the illakanum and memorise them. have a test this friday. was pretty attentive during chem lecture? took down a number of stuffs. forgot to bring the maths booklet. grr. so was paying half-attention. heh.

after school had this talk regarding gp.. the immersion programme to UWA. it was pretty awesome really. liked the slides they showed us, those sceneries? like wow. heh. mmm. i stole something? heh. they had these glow-in-the dark shapes on some of the chairs. i saw this pink star? couldn't resist the temptation! lols. and i got the baby blue moon too! cool cool. heh. went for band after that. did some ahem planning with bz. went for sectionals. played some pieces. saw chi and clivey. mmmm. after that had to go for dance? ms yamuna was like pretty pissed? but like yar, shouldn't show her temper on us? afterall, she's a teacher and we're the students. we've learnt all the steps in just one practice? only need more practicing? yar.

btw..oh my gawd? i'm like so fat? don't look nice dancing? feel pretty.. uhmm.. bad about that but yar. sighs. nothing i can now rights? sigh. sigh. sigh. =\. after dance went back for band, when they've ended. ugh. great. mmmm. gave joce her birthday present? don't know what it is, cos i got ce rong to buy it. hope she likes it though. got alvin a birthday card. heh. 'twas cute though, heh. after that had this pretty long meeting. but fun? yar.. im like always crapping and laughing rights? heh. mmm. left the school late? it was pretty dark already. got myself a can of coffee from seven eleven at clementi. plan to stay up til quite late today. wanna finish as much work as possible today so that from friday to sunday i can do other stuff.

pretty busy actually? in band there's farewell party, that's comin up real real soon. there's like so much stuff to be done. but yar, it's gonne be super fun! so excited! heh heh. don't worry. i won't be writing anything here about it. too bad. *sticks out tongue* lol. then i have the teachers' day dance. there's also pw! headache man. and yeah normal studies and all. guess i have no more time. borrowed this book from clive? The Unbearable Lightness of Being.. super-cheem? all the words wah.. lol.. really need a dictionary by my side.. but not TOO bad.. still readable.. but i think i have to put the book aside now.. cos yar.. guess i have to do other stuff first but mm.. maybe i'll read it during rest times.. ahh.. once i start i can't stop.. nvm.. guess i have lots of books in line to read during dec hols.. heh gee.. there's this gp common test this saturday? the whole paper? man. hope i'll make it. haaa. i mean yar.. sigh? dunno whether can pass?! =\ alrights now.. gonna start on my work already.

oh by the way, az mei got A1 for her O level Malay.. am so so proud and happy for her.. knew she could do it.. wishing her all the best.. -smiles-

dreamer ♥ 9:39 PM

Monday, August 11, 2003

i went to school for tuition as usual on sunday. my day at wdlnds library wasn't too productive. even though i did read and understand the chapter on DNA for bio. still not complete with it yet. attempted to do my chem. could only do the first few questions since we haven't gone too far in lectures. did a little of maths tutorial 10 too. pretty confusing these 3D shapes. i borrowed a storybook. by V.S. Naipaul. Clive suggested this author. the book was fiction/literature. titled miguel street. finished reading it today evening. it was a good read. enjoyed reading that book actually. can't wait for more. there's another author he suggested. maybe i'll get his books the next time round. i was very tired when i came back home. before that i was walking around a few of the shops at causeway point looking for some boxes. too ex. heh.

today, monday, was a long day indeed. was fallin asleep at around bio tut. and we had a gp assignment. man, i think i might not perform properly for this test. didn't put in much effort. on a higher note, i got full marks for my maths quiz. nothing great though everyone except 6 of us got full marks. i passed my chem test 2 with 18/30. at least i didn't fail, so it's something. only four students in my class do not have to attend the parent meeting. my name was under the 'not serious' list, with an asterik, cos i didn't clear an A level paper. and that is my maths, got an O. still remember how devastated i was. was burstin out on clive. poor guy. but yeah. i do have a serious problem in controlling my emotion.

actually i was late fer school today. we were sitting under the block waiting til it was save for us to enter school. lol. quite funny but really risky. we really only got in around 825+, the time clive said would be the safest earlier time? of cos, he's been late countless of time. lol. we wouldn't want our buspasses to be confiscated now would we. heh. so i missed the first period. saw him grinnin silly-ly? must be smirking away aye. the second period was bio lecture and i was sitting with karen. was having a little chat with her. and kind of came up with ideas to give the seniors. -grin- i hope they'll like it even though it's gonna be pretty simple.

well another issue raised was about my class unity. well we're distinctly divided. there's even this group called '69' consisting of the 9 chinese girls and the 6 guys excluding charlin, whom they do not fancy too much. the rest is yani hasvany elis wendelin me..yunman yvonne marcia. yeah. they are really ignorant and immature? to tell you the truth, i'm really affected? pretty sad about this ya know. sighs. really miss S5, 1st 3 mths class. Even other classes are like so bonded. But look at ours? it's disgustingly horrible. i'm sad. i guess yani's gonna give up soon. it's no use trying. two faced bitches and yar ya know. heh. if this the way they want it, then so be it. i don't care no more.

sighs. look at me slacking now. feel bad for slacking. cos yeah i don't wanna. but sighs, can't help it. i'm just not in the mood. feel rather beat? tired and all. yar. maybe it's because today's just a long day? mmmm.

i'm rather irritated by my sister. she keeps deleting my icq. sigh. i need icq. if not can't chat up with some of my pals. hope she won't delete it again. or i'd have to reinstall it. will this cause any harm to my comp? deleting and reinstalling ? over and over again? i wonder.
alrights. i'll stop here for today. going to start on some work that's due soon. take care.

dreamer ♥ 9:14 PM