...is to live life, simply...

"welcome."

Come closer. Look into my eyes. Slowly.
See how I’ve grown and changed through these 8*teen years.
Look at the things I have achieved and the ones I have destroyed.
Things I’ve started; complete and incomplete.
Those that I’ve loved and those that I’ve loath.
Remove the painted disguise and look at this princess in her lonely world.
Tired of picking up the b r o k e n pieces and to smooth out the creases.
Running. Waiting for someone to find her.
Come in now and read of my world.
But remember.
If you don't understand my silence, you won't understand my words.

Enjoy!

Sunday, June 01, 2003

first and foremost, i am from fod. it ain't working now, and it's really getting on my nerves. thus i've decieded to update here for the time being. :)
this is gonna be an update of things that's been happening since wednesday. it's been truly beautiful, so ill be stating as much details as possible, for me to remember. it's going to be a long continuation. :) so read if you want to find out what's been going on in my life. this might be my turning point? lol. here i go.
today was the chem test and practical test. i am sure to fail the chem test 1 and bound to get a single digit for my practical paper, cos i know that all my calculations were wrong. we had our 1st rehearsal for the ics cultural show. i didn't feel good at all wearing that halter neck. however it looked good. it was in saree material and all the colours are very sweet. we got to cover ourselves up with the scarf. so the rehearsals began. i couldn't go for band. it was my sacrifice. sad, come to think of it. however the good things is that the mini performance that was to be held today has been postponed to next wed, which means that i will be able to perform. thank you so much God. it was kinda tiring really. i talked to some people i never did before. like vivien. he's suc a gentleman lol. funny how he said we haven't met officially and introduced himself accompanied by a handshake. *wink- can't remember EXACTLY what happened though. i think i was quite frustrated with shalini,sticking with the guys lol.oh well.
jasmin asked me too help out with the banner. so i said okaes. heh. after the debriefing anisah accompanied me to the band room so that i could get my instrument from clive. unexpectedly, angel asked me to come into the room. it was so embarrassing as i was still in my costume. & guess what. they wanted to me to make an announcement together with silvester. somewhat promoting our concert on june 14th. Being so tired, without much thinking i just agreed and was filled in with information by edna. well, clive's face sure was black. i got silvester's number and went off. i went home immediately after changing. at around 9+ met silvester online and the others such as kitmun,jiamao,siyi and shai who would be playing twinkle twinkle little star. my job was to mainly announce the details of the concert. wasn't much though. discussed a little with edna too. :) i saw clive online and he wasn't in jjcsb. so i asked if he's so messed up with band that he didn't even join the channel. and he said, somewhat. sighs, poor guy. well he didn't tell me what's wrong, just that he was having an ultimate bad day. well, i didn't dare talk to him any further. so i typed this short lil message in notepad and send it to him. heh. :D gave fifi the list of songs that i wanted him to burn for me. such a nice guy right? haha.
practiced my tpt for a while til ten. luck for me i didn't receive any complains. hee. oh yes, fifi was saying that karen looked strangely familiar. and guess what, both of them were from the same primary school! and ya know what, both of them were from band! means that fifi is karen's senior! so cool right. lol. it was so funny seeing the excitement that fifi was filled with. lol. oh well, it's a small world after all. that pretty much is the end of my wednesday. i think i'll make a new entry for my thursday.
//vicky*

dreamer ♥ 12:28 PM