...is to live life, simply...

"welcome."

Come closer. Look into my eyes. Slowly.
See how I’ve grown and changed through these 8*teen years.
Look at the things I have achieved and the ones I have destroyed.
Things I’ve started; complete and incomplete.
Those that I’ve loved and those that I’ve loath.
Remove the painted disguise and look at this princess in her lonely world.
Tired of picking up the b r o k e n pieces and to smooth out the creases.
Running. Waiting for someone to find her.
Come in now and read of my world.
But remember.
If you don't understand my silence, you won't understand my words.

Enjoy!

Saturday, January 03, 2004

good morning! first time im updating in the 'morning' proper. well i'm just so happy that i need to share this piece of good news with my dear bloggie. its my eczema!! -nods- for majority parts of it on my head, are not red anymore! they are turning to more of a light brown..skin colour tone! when i saw it i was just SO happy i had to wake my mom up. oops. i'm sorry mom! but just imagine, if it really really is true, if this really really works. soon enough, with proper care i might get better. my eczema may get away. all those times when i was screaming so loudly inside due to the excruciating pain on the skin might just become memories. and if it all really really does happen.. can you imagine how much more a happier person i would be? i wouldn't feel so bad about myself anymore. i would really feel good. as in really. this is amazing. it's like getting another major reason out of the list to stop inflicting pain on myself. it's just.. wow. but boohoo. feeling real bad. as in my nose is leaking i'm coughing.. eyes getting all watery. ddin't go for band today. ugh. wanted to help with the spring cleaning. =( thought of going to woodlands lib to do my work. but guess i'll only freeze to death there. sheesh! the friggin headache's back again. darn. this really sucks. sighhhhh.

dreamer ♥ 9:03 AM

Friday, January 02, 2004

first day of school! i had a bad bad night ytd man. couldn't sleep AT ALL. diaoooooo. i'm like SO tired now? met lay in the morning, same time same place. waited fer haze at the bus stop. and sheesh! we were late. like on the first day of school. muahahaha. oh dear. but they didn't collect our passes. guess what!! woohoooo.. ms wun is my civics tutor! rawks big time mannn! yippieyeayyyyy! lol.. really glad? yeaps. much more determined to work harder! *winks*
hadta listen to koh talk and talk. siannn. we spent our first period with civics tutor. was fun lar huh with ms wun of cos hee. well. i actually am in the committee now.. guess what?.. welfare.. AGAIN! *omg* welfare in band welfare in class.. best already lohs.. haha.. needta deco the board? and im still doing our band notice board? ha. -faints- nvm, must be happy happy! lol. next period pe slack. the canteen has been changed but the vendors aren't there yet. so we had catered food but since its only available quite late we went to BP instead. i've been separated from my clique for gp. but its ok cos i still have puisin and xinxin. hee. chinni is in my gp class loh. sucks big time man. -pukes- my gp tutor.. cant say much? dont know bout her. maths lecture i was quite sad? realised that i have been separated from my dear friends for tamil lesson! eeek. my class only got me has anisah and divya? seven ppl with the guys? the other class has 12? like omg~ so unfairrr! hope they'll rearrange! i want to be same class with kirrthu jasmin and hema like old times! its more fun that way! well tamil class was a lil boring. but jega was telling us some stuff like he has worked with 4 Ps and this is his 5th. and koh is a totally diff P he has came across. like about 20+ teachers have left? gee.
oh and hazel passed me the present that joyce got for me. kinda like a pencil case? fury..not totally white though. sweeet! heh. smiles. oh and i was thinking of getting my new bag from bugis. but maybe not? shall get my stationaries first.
think ms wun was quite angry during bio tut which was our last tutorial fer the day! cos a lot of didnt bring some never do blahblahblah. the usuals. darn! im like so so dead. cos i dont know lots of things for photosynthesis. ok who am i kidding. i don't know everything. lol. all the terms even basics seemed a lil foreign. we have a test on the 17th. gee.. so many topics. really needta start. and there might also be a maths test that saturday. and there'll be band prac and also suppose ta go out with the girls! oh noooo. packed. haha.
after school saw a few of the j1s. not many newtowners this year i guess? ha. who cares. -.-" eeeek. saw this guy? not too bad aye. think he's indian muslim. wuhahahaha. =x saw laimeng at the bus stop. heh. oh and i also saw yueru puishan and karwei.. the three from my class who are repeating.. was so happy to see them!! really miss them so much! heh.. sighs~ sooo tired i fell asleep in the bus. well i just bathe. gonna sleep after this entry. and then i'll be working full force with bio. ive got three tutorials to complete. and i needta read up and understand all the stuff. make notes too i guess. wish me luck? heh heh. i also needta cultivate the habit of reading the straits time. maybe i'll take time to go to library and read times or newsweek. really needta improve my GP. oh dear. so it all begins. -takes a deep breath-
added
puisin kinda wrote this lil story to cheer me up.. hah so sweeeeet!! nobody wrote a story for me before? lol..
once upon a time...in a faraway land...in a sch on the faraway land...der is two classmates who are destined for each other...though they are of diffrent races...the chi guy's cute look never fails to attract a pretty indian girl's attention..the girl fell in love wif his small eyes..his fair skin..his cool hair...and above all...fell head over heels wif the guy's monkey look...but the girl is infatuation for him...den one dae...while walkign home..the girl found a lamp at a roadside...she den picked it up and TADA...WOOOSHHHH..SUDDENLY...appear a very evry beautiful genie called "PUISIN"...she thanked the girl for saving her frm being crashed by cars...and offered to grant the girl one wish onli...haha...den the girl jus wished dat the boy she likes will be happy..."YOUR WISH IS GRANTED"...said the genie...den the next day...the monkey boy...CONFESSED HIS LOVE FOR THE GIRL...coz the onli thing to make the boy happy is to be able to go stead wif the girl he loves and dat is none other den the girl...the girl is so shocked and surprised...without hesisitation...she AGREED...den they got married and LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER...

dreamer ♥ 2:45 PM

Thursday, January 01, 2004

hello! happy new year once again! heehee. was just too tired to update about new year's eve..well here goes.
went to school pretty early. met mizah on the bus. waitied for anisah and her friend. she really didn't know i cut my hair initially. haha. oh well. slacked at the benches for a while with anisah. met the band peeps outside the hall. heh heh. so happy? happily laughing and crapping all the way. played the hk game again. hee. so fun. only two seniors came- andy and weekiat, but at least they came lar! first was dinner. we did yam seng and all haha. i saw cody and his shaved legs! so funny. saw the girls too.. too bad karen wasn't there. would have loved to see her though. mmm.
shai's dance group is really really good. they did a great performance. they also got into the finals for the dance competition. and i was wondering, if jas and i wanted to take part in the talentime we need really good dancers and good costumes too. mmm. maybe we just shouldn't take part? gee..i don't know. but now they're currently preparing for cny performance. but i don't think i can take part cos might have band performance ya see. the council dance.. er only millah danced properly and her partner lar. but at least they tried! oohhh twister 199 or is it 911? came! lol.. i think they're really good.. esp the lead dancer.. sharp moves man.. awesome stuff! i loved the end where we were cheeering! yippie! i love cheering! HAHA! had the trad dance too.. did it with siyi.. so fun cos she's very hyper too heh! -grinnnn- cheeken dance!! wuhaahah!! lol..
mmm.. after a short briefing from handsome ng the band peeps left to go to the cc first cos we needed ta do ushering. yijia siyi and i went to find people to join the Are You Hot contest! haha they did most of the talkin lar.. i just tagged.. cos a lot of cheena? yeah.. but it was fun! heh. really thankful to those who joined. so later on when the competition started jiamao yijia siyi and i went to near the stage to cheer on the contestants that we had chosen! heh. couldn't stand those ahbengs.-.- the youngest guy was 13? for crying out loud THIRTEEN?! he striped can? -faints- ntohing to show also want to strip. sia la. cmi sia these people. people seemed to be having fun in the foam party man. but at each time think too much foam comes out. mmm. pretty pretty bubbles. haha.
during the interval we got to the front of the stage. haha! the channel newsasia camera was just above us lohs! sheesh! haha. dont think he took us larr. heh. after the comp, the four of us went to sit inside. countdown there ourselves. haha. kept complaining cos they all so slackie! must be hyper cos new yr what! LOL.. then woohoo here and there and the four of us were off to go walk walk. mao bought a cocktail first then we all shared. walked over to the stage area and then the pasar malam yippie! so happy cos get to buy fooood! i was hungry kaes! LOL.. heh heh.. yum yum!
after eating waited for the public to collect their bags.. then this idiot asked us to clear up the rubbish?! even outside?! and gave us trashbags!? can u believe it on new yr and doing this nonsense. -.- i dont even sweep at home loh. sigh. when the IC came back he told us we ddin't have to clear up? wth. rights ah. after we did so much then you tell us we dont have to. then we had to carry the barricates. sheesh. pretty heavy. after that got free drinks, leftovers rather. kept the tables. tiring man~ my feet were aching. took cab home with goi khia and km. came online a lil while before i slept. overall i had a great day! just fun to spend it with great friends! hahaa.
today mornin had trouble waking up. it's my sista's birthday. belinda and her guy came over too. cut choco cake leh. got ferrero rocher and ice cream too! so yummy! i think i really heck bout hmwk already? yeah.. school open then see how.. get to see the new j1s tmr! coolios! heard there aren't many indians and malays. how sad! HAHA.. guess i'll update again tmr yar. heh. why cant they just let us go back to school on monday? so dumb! hee hee. was chatting with ginny just now. wanna strangle her! kept saying me! haha.. you wait and see gurl.. one day i'll be the one crapping at you.. muahaah.. *sticks out tongue*

dreamer ♥ 5:19 PM

Wednesday, December 31, 2003

this is super long entry. so don't read if you don't wanna read everything -.-

This year, time has really passed by very fast. I was quite reserved when i first came to jj. wondering if i would be able to fit in. and man, i really did. in fact, the three months in jjc were actually the best moments i've ever had in my entire life. though we still had the usual tutorials and lectures, tests and so on, i still slacked a lot and had loadsa fun. we made a clique the few of us - lay hazel karen joyce mariam and me. of cos i can't tell you all those wonderul times now can i. slacking at grand stands, skipping lessons, crashing other jcs. valentine's day was the best in my life so far. really! all those gift exchanges, filled with so much love! we just love each other so much, and with them it's so easy to show it. it's so easy to open up. that special day at the cafe in holland with that yummy choco ice cream. we've just spent really special moments together! *giggles* my 1st 3 mths class 03S5 rawked big time! we were united like hell! really. haha. the bbq we had was awesome.
well, after joyce left, all of us started to get busy with ccas and studies. i started to drift away from them. and i found myself often feeling like i do not fit in. but now i've learnt that, you just need to relax and crap if you feel left out. really. but it's up to you, if you wanna shut up and stone of cos. haha. there this point of time where i was so trapped in my own little world. spending a lot of time on my own. just being alone. i was so very depressed. but it was a good thing, when band came cos band always made me very happy. sigh, but not until the day when km started it. oh dear. that was like, almost hell for me? things were just so so wrong. everything. i felt so distant from my angels. it was as though i had no one close to talk to. it was like, i was all alone. i had too much thoughts in my mind. but i made it a point to laugh and relax with my friends, to take matters off things. but the thoughts never subsided. just there, nagging at the back of my head. i started to have mood swings. so it was like going to school happily and returning home to be sad. the most depressing moments, i have experienced this year. oh dear. and thanks to depression anger frustration and everything else, i was blinded and foolish and became a victim to the blades. always turning to them whenever something when wrong. slash slash slash. new wounds over old ones. it was horrible. i never liked it, but i knew not of another way. but thanks to clive, i stopped.. for a few months.
so many things happened. like the dance syf. it was a great experience cos i got to know the indian community. i started to talk more tamil. it felt great to be with my kind. memoir and band syf. i was so thankful to have gotten so close with my seniors and to have found great friends like edna and clive. almost took part in talentime too..teachers day performance. but oh well, dancing is so fun. hee. celebrating friends' birthdays. studies wasn't too fun. i had a hard time coping. but thanks to mr simon and ms wun, i started to buck up and work hard in my studies. they really inspired me. i always knew that if i tried, i could make it. i just need something to kick in that effort in me. they were there. how fortunate? heh. it was also amazing how mugging for the promos brought me together with the gurls. and also bingzhen! yeah. we studied together - me hazel lay and karen. 'twas fun! and i have got to say that i am pretty proud of myself. i used to be very worried and sad because i've drifted so far away from my close friends in sec sch like my dearest godbro weilun.. chua shuyun and lin. but through this year, i've let go of them. no not really. i grew up with it. i understand and take it as it is. but it sure wasn't easy.
my grandmother passed away this year. i don't wanna say anything. =(
i had an eyecandy for a short period of time. ahem ahem. but it's a pity i didn't get to talk to him too much. he doesn't even come online much. nvm lar. heheeh. it's ok! i'm clear now! =D
and after school during the holidays spent so much time with band. we had so many activities and were so busy. well i truly loved all of it. bandfest was just cool man! and it's cool ta have found good friends from the noel concert. it was fun man. really. haaha. oh dear, this has been one hellava reflection? well i really wouldn't be here today smiling if not for the special people in my life i call friends. and now i would like to thank them. =)
Let me start with the band people.

Clive:: ok, where do i start. haha. ever since i joined band and got to know clive better he has been one hellava close friend and the elder brother i never had. he was there for practically the whole year minus the first few months haha. he did the most important thing that was listen to me. every single time. sucha a patient guy. he had such wise advices. and it's good to share your thoughts with someone who has been through it all, cos you know they'll understand. i can never say enough thanks yous to him really. just someone dear i will never want to lose!

Edna:: ednaaaa! lol. edna's like my big sister! she really has a big heart! a very down to earth- allrounded friend. thanks for listening to me lots and helping me out in my studies. miss the times when we studied together and all. -smiles- its funny cos i only started talking a lot to edna, after she kinda left band. miss those crappy icq chats too! kinda lost touch during this hols cos of our busy schedules. but hey, remember to keep in touch alrights! -hugs-

BingZhen:: Bz's like one the most important friend in my life. she's been with me for like five years now. real long aye? we've actually watched each other grow up SO much. we've been through some of the same things in life at different times but never failed to help each other. i can always count on her if i need anything. a shoulder to cry on, an advice. anything. bz i really really appreciate you, and you do know that! words just don't say it all my dear.. i love you! muacks!

Siyi:: *chuckles* a beautiful woman inside out that i only got to know better after bintan camp. ohhh siyi you're sucha sweetie you know that. i never really knew that you cared so much till i got that email from you. seriously. i'm sorry to have been so blind. during this hols we've spent a lot of time together. and ive enjoyed every single one of them! aye, i still wanna thank you for staying back with me that day! lol! but honestly, i pray that we'll still remain as good buddies even when school starts yeah? i really really love you so much! just so glad to have found a friend like you!

Raemarie::rae's kind of like the friend i was closest too in band during the start or so. she helped me around a lot. she was there to help me out especially during the conflict i had with kitmun. i really really need to thank you for that. you don't know how much i appreciate it. think i would have just fainted if not for you! yeaps. we kinda lost touch for a while. but it's heart warming to know you still care. thanks darling. you are worth so much yar? =)

Laimeng:: hey lm has also listened to me alot and also helped me too. thanks dear for listening to me. it really helps! really. heh. we don't spent too much time together, but just wanna let you know that you are a dear friend and have a special place in my heart! and to reply what you wrote in my xmas card, you're def not a bad friend..it helped cos you took matters off the mind! maybe we should meet every saturady on our way to band so we won't lose touch! haha. =P

I also want to thank my section seniors like Angel and Ling who have add more colours to my life and also Fifi.. thanks also to jiamao, wenting for listening to me at times. joce too yeah? and yijia! you make smile and laugh a lot really.. thanks man! char n sandy, my 'new' godsisters? haha.. and lately got to know ginny and yintat better through all those crappy chats. not exactly get to know better. just a lil closer? ginny's a real good pal and didn't know yt is pretty cool too really..thanks lots for listening to me too? haha! hope our friendship will last!

Yani:: the closest i am with in class. has been there to always lend a helping hand with my studies. luckily i have her in class. if not i'd be so alone really! heh heh. thanks for everything!!

Puisin:: hey! we only talk more online i guess.. very crappy in school! haha. but really thanks for everything.. i miss the chats where we talk about anything and everything. muahaahha. must study hard next year okaes? -big huggies-

also my clique in class elis wendelin and has! ya'll make class life much better! thanks to Jenna also? hehe. sad that we have kind drifted. kinda like my class better now. hopefully we'll bond better next year! =)

Karen::in my clique of girls the closest i am to is definitely karen. karen's so wow! just simple amazing. i miss the times when we spent hours and hours talking on the phone. it was thanks to her that i came out of my shell. haha. karen taught me lots of things like being more accepting of others. more open minded to the things happening around us, in the world. i am extrremely sad that i wouldn't be able to see her face in school next year. and i really pray that we will never lose contact. oh heck! we definitely will not!

Lay:: The next i talk to most will be lay cos we come to school every morning. lay has this very warm touch ya know. makes you feel loved. though sometimes i think otherwise i still love her all the same. she has listened and been there for me.. its just special really.

Hazel:: don't really spent much time with hazie babie.. but she's a smart arse! she's really caring but it's a pity we're not that close. it's hard sometimes yeah oh well. thankiew darling for all the special moments! muacks.

Joyce:: jocey!!!! hehhehe. i love joyce! to me, she's the heart of our lil clique. darlin, just want you to know that though we don't talk much you're always in my heart and i will never forget you. cross my heart and hope to die dearie! heh. really treasure the times we've spoken on the phone. she's the one who made me see that in our clique, all of us feel left out.. but its just at different times. and it's really really true. =)

Mariam:: you went through a lot with this clique aye? well its good you've found friends you can click better with. i don't know. but you're a great gurl. thanks for studying with me in woodlands library and all yeahs. we did feel the same stuff at times, but im sorry i told them to you quite late. just hope things work out better for you honey!
I love all my angels/sisters a lot!!!!! they really made life so much brighter =)

Jasmin:: heyyy! we were classmates during the first three months. actually i didn't really like jas initially. thought she was a lil flirt and all. but my impression of her really changed. in fact, im very proud of her because she changed so much to become a better gurl! really. jasmin's not the kind of friend that i talk my problems too. but we talk a lot yeah? sit beside her during tamil classes. real fun. heh. thanks lots for being there when i teared! really.. you mean a lot to me! -hugs-

Anisah:: hey anisah is a real sweet friend man! she listens to my problems.. band and also how i feel about AHEM -shakehead- really can't stand that woman yar? haha. well really hope we can spend much more time together. thanks for everything you've done. you're really a sweet sweet friend and it's a pity we're not very close. heheeh. =P

Nazreen:: naz is the first indian j2 friend that i started to talk much with. she's a real dearie. i must thank her a lot for listening to me to all my nonsense when i was crushing over this guy ! HAHAHA. it was all so funny. thanks lots yeahhhh. think ive said everything i wanna say in the testi i recently wrote you. but hey, you mean much more. thanks thanks!! heehe. will miss you a lot really. just don't forget me k? haha take care honey!

Vivian:: i used to be quite close to vivian when i was going through my depressing shit. thanks for being there! still remember that i almost burst into tears while sitting at the bus stop with him. he's just so nice that i wanna tell him whats bothering me cos i know he'll understand me. but i didnt yar? lol. but anyway, i still remember the emails he sent me.. yeah we communicated a lil in emails cos somethings i just cant talk yar. well viv, we've kinda drifted but you're a really great friend! i just hope we won't lose touch. thank you so so soooo much!!!!! i appreciate everything you've done so much. thankiew!!!

during the hols got to talk a lil more with my fod pals. kinda lost touch due to hectic jc life. thanks most imp to Min yeah!! hehe.. also wanna thank huiwen and ame! -smiles-

also wanna thank friends like nadia and jennifer for everything. it's really sad that we haven't been talking to each other for very long but i love you all yar =)

a big THANK YOU to all my friends!!!!! happy new year to everybody!! remember to smile always and be happy *big hugs and kisses*

dreamer ♥ 5:22 AM

heys! sorry i haven't been updating.. well sunday were the prayers for my grandma since its the 30th day. remember those so called irritating guys? well i overheard them asking my lil bro if im his sister and wch sch i was from or somethin. like oh com'on im obivously older than them. haha. the younger's one cuter but he's too young lar too bad. lol. and in the night i had this great chat with kenneth teo! my dearest junior! heh. yeaps. it wasn't one of those heart warming chats where we catch up but those really crappy ones that makes you go crazy where you type so fast.. wuhaha.. it was really funny and fun of cos! enjoyed it lots. great news is that i haven't been chatting with hari online for a while! yes! woohoo! lol.. -grinnnn-
the past few days haven't been too great for me really. like one of the nights when i went to bed.. i was tearing.. i don't know. i just felt like i've done so much wrong this year. especially cutting. yes, i know it's wrong. but anger and frustration really blinded me. guess no one is ever glad that they started. sigh. but i also do know that there's no point in all of this, bcos its not like i can turn back the hands of time. but it's sad to think of all the things that have gone wrong. and how i have hurt my mother. but im on the road to giving up really. for her. onof the night my head felt like exploding. guess i was thinking too much - the new years comin. hmwk not done. As. dont wanna screw em up. no way. and band..like i dont know how to improve myself? very worried for memoir next year.. for my section..really hope we get some new blood next year yeahs. and im not giving in anymore. think its really time i start to take some actions, and to stop being afraid of being misunderstood. but don't worry, it doesn't mean i'll be ignorant. well bcos of all this i had to walk of the room and teared in the hall. sigh. saddening. then i came online and lucky for my joce and clive were still online. dig this i kinda chatted with clive till 7am. lol..funny.
monday was kinda like my boring boring day. but it got better later into the night. had this long long chat in the night. was smsing like fer so long? using my dad's sms. haha. ended up coming online to chat? cos smsing was quite difficult. haha. had lots to say ya see. haha. but it was really fun. yeaps! hee hee. mmm.. wonder what's wrong with bz though.. know that even if i ask her she'll say nothing's wrong. sighs. oh dear. at first i though she was pmsing, then again, guess something's wrong. not everyone likes to always talk bout what's bothering them anyway. yeahs.
today was a much interesting day. woke up in the afternoon and i went ta cut my hair! yes i have a totally new hairstyle now. my long long nice nice hair with all the pretty curls are gone now! in case you didn't know, think my hair's the only nicest thing bout myself! haah. my hair's super short now. the kind you can't tie. yeaps! i kinda freaked out initially. cos it was a total change ya know from long hair to this. haha. thought i look pretty fat and uglier now. sheesh! lol. well tis not all that bad i guess. just hafta wait and see what more people have ta say bout it when i go ta school tmr. heh.
so i met yani and elis at dover and we went to marian bay. elis was saying i don't really look like i cut my hair from the front. lol. well, she didn't even recognise me at first. haha! we met wendelin later on! omg! she cut her hair as short as me too! that's like so cool! HAHA. we waited pretty long cos we were early. lol. they came around 620pm. the rest of the chinese girls. all of them look so pretty. haha. then qianhui was like..look so matured blahblahblah! hahaha *blush* AHHAHAHA! no lar.. well at least it isn't that bad rights! qh sure did look pretty ah damn all of em are! HAHA. so sad that yueru couldnt make it. has, the three musk., karwei, fazal, weide. really glad that the rest could make it! hee hee! i was my usual crazy self laughing and all. it was fun lar. steamboat dinner. yum yum! stuffed myself man. it was just sooo funny with wen and all her crap. and thsoe live prawns! hahahaa.. yani's like our 'mother' cookin fer us and all! hahaaha.. yeayyyy i had lotza fun! very happpy.. we took this group photo! damn nice! all of look good man.. really really! LOL.. so bhb rights? aiyar! heh. well when i have gotten the photos i`ll upload and ya'll can check em out..a dn my new hair too! HAHA! =x the four of us left earlier lar but it was quite late also.. reached home around 11 plus.. and like great! had to be nagged at by my sister. this time i kept my mouth shut. HURRAY to me! -miles- so look who's the one saying fuck and bitch now. she used to always complain that i use vulgarities. the tables have turned aye? ha ha. so i quickly washed up and went to sleep. when they were about to sleep, i mean my sis and bro i came to use da comp! hee hee. think i might be doing another entry.. like what i always did back in fod? yeahh.. the thankiew and appreciating session of sorts.. think ive got lots of people to thank.. or rather.. lots to say! -big smiles- tmr will be going to sch from 6-9 for this farewell thingie. if my mom allows i might be staying over at the chalet.. the 2/2 one. countdown with friends.. so fun rights! heh heh.. yeay.. mmmm.. parents wouldnt be home.. sigh.. dont think i'd wanna see my sister first thing of new year.. though its her 21st birthday.. sighx.. dont know lar.. sigh~ -shakehead-

dreamer ♥ 3:06 AM

Your element is Water. You are a deep person and a good communicator. Incredibably loving and loyal when your trust is gained and you are fairly mature.Myterious to the utmost water is in everything. One can be an Ocean or a river but nobody truly knows you.

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The down-to-earth girl

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Cautious

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Carefree

You're just the happy go-lucky type. You might have your pet peeves, but other than that, you're mainly calm. Blending in with your surroundings, you're the type of person who everyone likes. Usually it's you who cracks jokes at social gatherings - after all, laughter is the best medicine. Sometimes you pretend to be stupid, but in all actuality, you could be the next Einstein.

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dreamer ♥ 2:31 AM

Sunday, December 28, 2003

it was a pretty good day today. bz forgot to bring the food mats and the wires so we practically can't do much. after putting up the black papers, which are so not enough, we went back for band prac. the we had sectionals. but the tpts saxes clarinets and perc stayed in the band rm tgt with mao. eventually it became a mini sectional or something? lol. and a while later of practising everybody started to slack. crapped around with lm joce and regina. teaching regina tamil again. just like the good ol' pri school days. haha. lm was soooo lame wuhaha. okok =P after combined and irecommend band ended. bz made strawberries dipped in chocolate for the band. but she disappeared pretty fast for the art stock taking thing. and she decided not to go for the concert. boohoo. oh well.
we went to jp for lunch at macds. it was fun talking to xm and piggie at our table. poor ch, she was darn tired. i saw my sister! for a moment i thought the guy was her guy. lol. we took mrt, and then a bus to sa. lol, think we were pretty noisy. but ah who cares. haha. there were so many empty seats aye, no offence but guess they were really despo for audience. haha. oh my gawd! after the endof the 1st half, i was like drained. on the verge of sleeping. so damn tired. siyi came back and tgt with shai we were wondering if we should leave. and just at that very very moment!!!! muahaha.. i saw eyecandy! mine that is! totally shrieked! piggie's one was there too! ahem. LOL. we were suddenly charged up? laughing all over again. guess 'they' pulled us through the concert. remember serendipity? its a sign! wuaaahaaha -smack forehead- oh and i saw the new prisoner haircut yt was talkin bout. lol. well i kinda expected something shorter? don't think it's that bad, but hey -nods- sure looks like a prisoner. lol. yeay, i can't wait to cut my hair too! lol.too bad ginny didn't come. haven't seen her online in a few days too.
so after the concert ended (like, finally!!), we were sitting and waiting for everyone to get done with whatever they were doing. and lm was bursting out with sheer happiness. aww, i'm so happy for her. -huggies- reminds me of the time when fizzy smiled at me! i still remember the exact spot it happened at. haha. my my. well sitting there, we got better views aye? muahaha.. so funny. but oh well, its not everyday we get to see them ya know. and its not everyday that we talk to them either. rights piggie? haha. i'm sure you'll agree with me but mmmm.. thinkin back i wasn't exactly very happy when i saw our respective eyecandies. lol. -shrugs- guess its our lil cheapthrill fer now? haha. most prolly would be going back to school on monday to complete the board. we really need to, before next year. but i might have prayers. wonder what time that will be though. think i'm off to bed again now. hee. nights all.

dreamer ♥ 1:04 AM